Cry.

twirling wheel.

tears never flow as hardest as i eyed-on-eyed with you at this moment.

i look at your face,i saw your sadness.

and that kinda' feel doubled me dear.

i'm hurting a lot to see you with this miserable circle.

dont ask me why my tears are dropping as you ask me not to ask you 'bout your-coming.

seem it all for love dear.

and i will never ask cause i know you need me a lot at this moment.

i love you whoever you are.

its my promise since i give all my heart to you.

this is life.

let's walk,jog and run together.

I WILL BE WITH YOU.

FOREVER.

PadaMu Kubersujud

Teman - Lovehunters

Kekasih Yang Tak Dianggap

Real Love

Love The Way You Lie

Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) Lyrics

Singgah

saya sudah rasa terrrrAmat-amat bahagia sekarang ini.di waktu ini.jangan uji kebahagiaan saya lagi Ya Allah.

Each thing happened come up with a reason.

many reason.


*COUTION*

MARK THIS WORDS.

20.10.2010 talking talking

Penchinta laman web sosial Facebook semuanya bercakap tentang istimewanya tarikh 20.10.2010  (arini) because it seem to be like double 2010. :20102010. Sumpah,kalu xcakap,xperasan pun. Sekarang ni, hari,tarikh macam dah aku xambik kisah pun.dah lama chemistry aku dgn tarikh & hari tidak bertaut.dulu,tme study memang tarikh&hari ni penting sangat.ye la,bila tarikh cuti hjung minggu,cuti am WAJIB tahu awal. sebab masa tu nak di plan untuk keluar dgn kawan2,nak balik kampung or just stay at hostel.relax2.dan dulu, concern giler bab tarikh &hari ni sebab due date assignment,quiz,test,report,final exam or any academic related topic depends on them.how i miss that time!

sekarang hidop dah macam goyah sedikit.xtahu kemana hala tuju untuk dilangkah.every step taken was the same.each day,each time.no more dating with friends,just get up from bed,do the pray,staying at home-eating-relaxing-watching-chatting and surfing.24/7.dah lama x hang-out.release tension.rasa rindu bangkit.k,bye. ;'(

I AM SICK OFF!!!

i'm sick of something that made me feel like this. 
i'm sick of the thing that made my adrenalin flows hardly like burst out from my head. 
Ouhh, what is actually this kind of sick?!
Am I hurt?  NO, I'm not. 
But I'm sick of things.
Argh. 


p/s****Actually this post are created while I'm not in a good condition.How I hate this feeling.
hey feels,back off please!!!!!!!!!!!
You are unwanted HERE,each Beat inside.FULLSTOP.

Love Notes

09052008:18062008

thank you الله for this 2 years & 4 months.

الحمد لله

for this kind of feel, sacrifice,love,give~take,

care and trust.

WAN HARIZ WAN RUSLI

I ♥ YOU.

I DO

counting a ticking clock....

anis:hariz is currently counting a date to meet all her friends at her convocation day at Putrajaya International Convention Centre on 23rd October 2010.

InsyaAllah,sampai kami ke sana!

Superb 10

Such an amazing date,,month and year..

10.10.10
speechless...

thank God for this feeling,harmonious and happy living! Amien

kenapa frasa kata rindu,kata sayang,kata puji dan semua frasa katakata manis begitu murah nilainya sehingga ia senang bermain di bibir?malah ia dimainkan bukan untuk si penchenta setia.

do or don't

its a question. better give answers!

parasit bercambah bak kulat tumbuh selepas hujan

Dugaan hidop itu sentiasa ada.

at first, i think its never too late for me to wish all muslims happy eid mubarak. May our life full of joys, hapiness and blessing from The Creator.
For about a few weeks i havent posting of any entry to my blog (although i knew no one read mine) but for me it okay,cause writing here is just like a mind and psychology therapy for myself. as long as im not writing many things happened on me.my family.
1st important thing, bak's gone for forever. my grandfather on my mother side. the day he passed away was a very fascinated day and time. at the end of fasting day which is tommorow we are getting to celebrate a glorious eid mubarak 1413 H at 7pm. never thought that the day was the last day i checked his blood. i saw him during the momment of Sakaratul maut. how powerful the creation of our creator! alhamdulillah at the morning of eid mubarak bak's was buried at our nerest funeral grave.
as i writing today,this time my mom and their siblings are busy preparing for the last day of '7 hari tahlil untuk arwah'. bak's memories still in my mind. told the villagers, bak's had given so many contribute for our kampung.yup, that was my bak.memories of tok mudin, zapin,silat,cikgu ripin and pengakap high committee member still in mind of peoples who knowing him. BAK. he's a well-known among many people. there is a note,valuable note my dad found in a pocket of bak's scout uniform. it sounds:

"Banyak org banyak ragam,dan kite pun ada juga ragam..0leh itu,,jgn sekali-kali kita mengata org atau keji-mengeji org dan carilah jln untuk menyedarkn diri kite..hati jd suci dan tenang.."

all is right.. hopefully bak was placed among of religious people. AMIN. AL-FATIHAH.

at this time im writing this words, i'm at Hospital Uni Sains Malaysia. it just like take turn. my grandmother of abah side not in well condition. heart attack. just hook in one words faranisa! setiap manusia diuji untuk melihat sebanyak mana nilai kesabarannya. yup, i'm grab it all. 

and yesterday..
i met an old friends of mine since i was studying at mrsm kuala krai. surprisingly, everybody changed. all become more beauty with make up:eye liner, blusher,eye shadow,lipstic etc. is a must in everybody face. all became nice.everyone talking bout partners, while couples sharing foods and drinks.
i'm looking and thinking; time comes and go.clock ticking every second and friends who sharing quality time being a girl so many years ago,are now being a teenage.and me... im not the same at their ages. im a woman. im cried. stroried that situation to my father just now. i'm telling him.. 'ya pun xthu tu kelebihan ko kekurangan...'with tears drop from my eyes. dont know.


feel likes im facing this all alone.

kesempurnaanMu

kalau takdir sudah menentukan yakitu
si uda sempurna lahir batin tersebut  untuk aku,
aku sudi.

tapi 

hati aku ditimpa gulana jika 

dugaan senantiasa timbul dari si dara yang seringkali choba menguji kewarasan minda aku untuk berfikir.

bagi aku kesempatan untuk tarik nafas panjang Yaa Allah!!!

alhamdulillah.

salam...
ya allah,syukur sgt2.within a couples of week ++ i havent signed in into my blog, finally i tried once just now.
syukur,belog dah xsakit. entry box tempat writing new post ni dah bleh tulis karangan dah. dah xjadi loading panjangpanjang dah. btw, dah lama rasenye xmencoret sesuatu. skrg puase, dan dah nak rayer dah pun.tinggal lg  about a week coming to celebrate aidilfitri.

sepanjang xsharing something in my blog theres lot of things happened in my life. dah tamat jadi teacher first thing.then,balikbalik kelantan pun dengan satu berita sedih sedang menanti.bak (atok) masuk ward. kencing manis dan sakit tua. jadi sy berperanan menunggu di ward beberapa hari.many things i have learned.

dlm pade itu, pak sedara pun turut sama masuk ward.lebih kritikal dr keadaan bak.sakit jantung dan kesan dr itu seluruh tubuhnya dijangkiti kuman.semalam (1.9.10) dr pagi aku ke sana bersama isterinye yg keseorangan.sempat sedekahkan beberapakali yasin,mengajar utk mengucap dan baca 3kul untuk beliau. sesungguhnya ajal di tangan yg maha esa.lebih kurang pukul 10 malam dia telah menghembuskan nafas terakhir.dan pagi tadi aku ke rumah beserta kubor mengiringi jenazah.alfatihah kepada beliau.
sesungguhnya,pemergian beliau dirasai.

p.s: mok je, family yaa sentiasa ada d cc mok je.

symalu.sydipermalu.sehinggasyrasateramatmalu.sobsobT_T

belog sy ada penyakit.xboleh nak tulis ape2 dekat entry box.geram!nngggee

i..am..terribly..too..much..
disappointed


apenakbuatkalauhatiterasadanmatagiatmenzahirkantangis??
saatnirinduNabilayangsentiasanangisbersama

buat yang dikasihi...

kawan2..
buat semua kawan2 yang telah menggapai tangga untuk ke puncak menara gading,tahniah diucapkan.
semoga berjaya.

-sek. keb. sultan ibrahim 4 (dyia,syafika,balkish,tuti dan ramai ag)
-MRSM Lenggong (dinie,ira,syaza,kak chah dan semua)
-MRSM Kuala Krai (pja,aaja,dayah,siroh,syidar,c-ket,nisa,mok cik,mekti dan ramai2 ag)
-SMK Kubang Bemban (isma fatini,pah,pah-syarifah,jun,ida,tie,fite n so on)
-KPM Indera Mahkota (nabila,sue,wani,dek,Big D,hayat,ain,nadia & semua)

harap sgt jumpa balik kwn2..mcm dlu2.rndu weh.smoga mane pun set mu duk,moga bejaya.jadi org bguna.
tasktask ;(

Adakah benar kalau kita....

makan pisang yang kembar macam ni,,,,

orang cakap kita akan dapat anak kembar?


Kalau begitu, saya sudah~~~~



anda bagaimana????

perjalanan rawak 1

tanggal 30/8,taking flight to Kelantan. Sejak sebulan mengajar dan diajar di negeri orang, saya balik kampung untuk me'release'kan tension dalam diri. Mr H always being patient waiting to pick me up at the airport. Hurm,terharu. love.

dari atas sana~indah ciptaan-Nya

kata saya, 'u perut i BerRnyanyi...'menandakan dia nak diisi.so kami santap di Kg Grill on da way back home.
lovetobewithu,besideudear.ufilledmeup!!
esokkan harinya, breakfast bersama ibubapa yang membawa anak menantu makan dekat pengkalan kubor.diikui nurul ain yang tumpang menginap di rumah.so,we having shopping after breakfast.jamu mata dengan variety of handbags which can make me insane.yup,im handbags addicted!

r.panjang~mee cambo n somtam

lepas tu,ke rantau panjang. Pekene mee cambo dan somtam yang ternyata xde yang sesedap berkenaan di KL.serta merta rasa xnak balik KL dah. Hey Kelantan,you really hooked me up with ur extraordinary delicious foods!
aktiviti malam tu plak,allofmy famly went to somewhere at beris kuburbesar-kedai lalat to taste meggi ketam.
betul,ia memang mmaaasssyyyyuuuuukkkkk habis!!! my kakak ipar memang suker gler..mmg xbleh blah dia makan mlm tu.xkurang juga Mr H.i never thought u eat that syg.

meggi ketam

Btw,ahad pagi ktorg dah gerak naik kl dah.dengan Keta Lah. nak dijadikan cerita saya demam n allergic ketam smlm.muka merah xbleh blah.but maintain,Mr H ada. Sampai Kl dalam pkul 9 sempat lagi tengok midnight.twilight:eclipse.that night stay kat umah ayah ngah smewhere at pj.pg esoknye, x g mengajar...MC 2hari, demam la kunun.tapi larat jugak pegi teman my hubby shopping kt KLCC.then hantar nurul ain kat Melaka yg ketika tu turut demam.Jalan2 melaka mmg best.Thanks n sorry tuk Lah Ilman n Nurul Ain.dari melaka gerak balik kl.sampai rumah ayah ngah kul3 pg.Mr H hntar je kerena dia tdo rumah kwn rakibnye,Zulfadli.Selasa esoknye,lepas layan cter Salt dekat Sunway Pyramid, hantar my syg kat airport. barulah saya pulang damansara untuk mengajar balik.Hakikat sebenarnye, saya rasa saya xboleh tidak bersama anda Hariz.Once u be there, I have to step u up too.sorry ^-^

shopping time

selesai.harap datang lagi perjalananperjalanan yang bermakna seperti ni di laen mase.insyaAllah!

saya.suka.bila.mana.awak.ber'haha'.dengan.saya

he who laughs,lasts!

i have read a book.titled He Who Laughs, Lasts! by Mr David Tong. The anecdotes was a sequel to the previous book that i've read before-Laughter, The Best Medicine,Malaysian. both of the books were really booombastic. It provided me lot of lively jokes and so, it fulfill my dullydully day.For those, try one,and u will go to the next,next-next and next-next-next pages. trust me.

while i was reading, I was fascinated to a few kind of words.Check it out;

'the most wasted day of all is that in which we have not laughed' -Sebastien-Roch Nicolas de Chamfort

Falling In Love 

'a successful marriage requires falling in love many times,always with the same person'-Mignon McLaughlin

Forgiveness

'a good wifey always forgives her husband when SHE's wrong'-Milton Berle

Secret to a Happy Marriage

'to keep your marriage brimming, with love in the loving cup, whenever you're wrong, admit it; whenever you're right,shut up'-Ogden Nash 

Ego Boost 

Just think...if it weren't for marriage,men would go through life thinking they had no fault at all.

p/s: it make me thinkingandthinking of something in human life.in our life.It is relationship.

new things for the-new-me

Seems long time Im not writing about my journey of my life.

btw, about a few weeks before Im dying-busy with the whole thing to be 'the-new-me'.

Guess what I got now??

I got the new responsibility, new experiences, new environment, new title and the most important I AM XtraOrdinary love+like for what am i doing now!!

Dont worry Mr H,I still love u for nothing!

--------------------oke,enough for the so-so intro--------------------

Lets clarify all these.

I have a new title called Cikgu. At the first day as I registered for a replacement teacher, my heart ticking so hard when im listening to student who calling me teacher. OMG, how I love this profession!!

There are so many thing i have to handle by myself. At this point I was thinking it is not easy to be somebody and stand by our own two little foot. Its tough. I have a lot of things to do which was not at my place and age.

or the prove, look at this ::::::::::::

surat akuan sumpah

*I have to find surunhanjaya sumpah to get their sign and I also need to drop down my signature in front of them*

next, went to (Kumpulan Wang Simpanan Nasional, KWSP) in order to register as KWSP members. Its compulsory for us to do this although im only a replacement teacher. If not, the school or any employers are not allowed to hire us.

after that, i went to maybank to register my saving account. This time I smile a lot.Guess why???

Its for my SALLARY. Thhheee ;)

ssssoooo, tttttaaaaddddaaaa.........

this is my cherry maybankard. good for shopping OK! winkwink

Habislah cerita 1 hari meng'setel'kan benda2 tu semua.

so, skrg dah starrt teaching student. Nak tengok hasilnye? ni haaa..

tulisan kat white board tu by me ok.

*sorry for the vandalisme.budak jaman ni kan!

Lastly,

this is the-ugly-me

Iwanttofeelit.like this!!

Coution!!

25 Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do For You

1. Knows how to make you smile when you are down.

2. Tries to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.

3. Sticks up for you, but still respect your independence.

4. Gives you the remote control during the sport game.

5. Comes up behind you and put his arms around you.

6. Plays with your hair.

7. His hands always find yours.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.

9. Offers you plenty of massages.

10. Dances with you, even if he feels like a dork.

11. Never runs out of love.

12. Be funny, but know when to be serious.

13. Realizes he's being funny when he needs to be serious.

14. Be patience when you take forever to get ready.

15. Reacts so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.

16. Smiles a lot.

17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, but just because he knows it means a lot to you.

18. Appreciates you.

19. Helps others out.

20. Drives 5 hours just to see you for 1 minute.

21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.

22. Sings, even if he can't.

23. Has a creative sense of humor.

24. Stares at you.

25. Calls for no reason.

meaningless?

WH Questions..

WHat do you mean you are meaningless?
WHy it should be meaningless?
WHo make you feel so meaningless?
then,WHere is meaningless disappeared until you did not feel that?
WHich part is actually you think you are meaningless?
SO,
WHen you felt the meaningless, who you will find?

.answer.me.please.

kanvas kebahagiaan

kebahagiaan..

aku yang mencorak 

atau

aku yang dicorak?

kalau aku yang mencorak,

di atas kanvas yang kau rentangkan,,

tentunya aku menginginkan yang terbaik,

mengikut cita rasa jiwaku.

buat apa yang aku suka.

inginkan dalam likuku.

Tapi, bila aku dicorak,

adakah aku perlu akur?

tetap.aku tetap akur.

telan segenap rasa pahit,

walaupun aku tak menginginkan.

aku tahu,sebalik pahit rasa ini akan menyelinap 

satu kebahagiaan yang aku impikan.

Share.sharing is caring

when u share your sadness,,
It'll be half....
when u share your happiness,,
it'll be doubled....

try-it-yourself-

Precious 50rm note.

Thankx you aunty for the precious 50 u gave me just now.
I'll repay ur kindness.
yes.i will.
Hook my word!
emh.

Berikan-balik-gula-gula-bahagia-itu Version II

//YOU MAY SKIP THIS ENTRY//

 

yup..

mudah saja.

bagi balik kenikmatan merasai manis gula2 itu.

seperti dulu,

diberi sebelum meronta-ronta meminta.

Atau ketika ini memberi sudah menjadi satu bebanan?

~~~~~~~~~speechless

Telegram Chentaku #2

Tmkasih for being with I about 18hours, 38 minutes and 58second.

Ada kenangan indah?
The feeling was flat.

Love.our love become no words.

Even no touching and holding.

Thank you U. I appreciate ;(
Im sorry.

Uda & Dara

Hati sepi,

Jiwa sayup,

minda kosong..

Pincang dek kerana cintanya kini sejuk bahangnya...

Tiada seperti dulu...

Siapa bersalah?

Siapa yang mengalah?

Uda yang terlalu dingin,

atau Dara yang terlalu mengingin?

...tanda tanya...

Sedih~~

070710.1206

KB > KL

Esok urgently flight to KL..
Someone need me as soon as possible to be there.
So Cik Babah a.k.a Abah dan Cik Mimi a.k.a Mi decide to let me go by plane. Alone.
So esok malam kalau xde aral melintang dah kt kl..
Rase xnak tinggal katil,bear,bantal busuk, aircond, blanket, almari baju dan semua isi rumah.
Tapi hati sbenarnye xnak jauh dgn Mr Hariz..TAK SANGGUP!!!!
Emm..kalau ikut hati xnak, tapi kena.
This is a very valuable oppurtunity to show my responsibility and gain some knowledge in something I never did before,but I wish I can do it in the future. Its my passion!

*Mr Hariz: This is for us, for our future. So, dont worry. Im yours.
`jangan kau bimbang sayang, dimanaku berada, dengan siapa ku bersama,jangan bimbang ku tetap kau yang punya`

Dadah tak lucu...

Dikejutkan dgn berita bahawa seorang pelakon,pelawak dan pengacara yang pernah memenangi Anugerah Bintang Popular telah ditahan polis bersama sekumpulan rakannya yang disyaki POSITIF dadah.

Dengar je verita tu mmg dlm mind xpikir org lain dah.. Dah pop-up trus name A.P.E.K dalam kepale.

Ke'frust'san timbul En Saiful sbb kamu adalah salah seorang pelawak yg dibangga-banggakan oleh setiap golongan penonton selain dari Allahyarham Din Beramboi... 

Your fresh and energetic jokes had been followed by any stages of age.

Unfortunately, this image had down you..

So, please back off.. Definitely, for urself,family,career and fans..

(keypad lock.enter pin~~~)

Telegram Chentaku

Dear U,

Happiest 21st birthday and not forgotten our lovely

2nd year anniversary day.

18.06.2010

meant everything to me.

Nothing less, as I always pray for your/our happiness,

good health,

God blessing and long life..

Jam randek kecil dalam hati ini berdetik hanya untuk kamu...

             

Its most simple things.But I do hope u enjoy this B.. For U,

  TeAmor;Muchos            

Arenis

Pathetic Mathematic Teacher..

Alrite kids.. lets do revision for what I've taught you yesterday..

If you can answer me, I'll give you sweets..

Hariz,,,

                      1 + 1= equal to???

Hariz get up and being silent for a while...(thinking)

And he answers...

It will be 6 teacher..

Why it should be 6 dear, ONE PLUS ONE cannot be SIX...

Cause I have multiplied it with 3, so the answer will be 6.

I need 6 sweets to share it with my best friends, Zulfadli & Lah Ilman.

Both got 2, same goes to mine..

Did I'm being fair and square teacher?

Teacher *sigh~~ Oh,yes...Okay then.

Ceritera Romantis Budak Setan

Bila cinta kini

tak lagi bermakna

yang ku rasa kini

hanyalah nestapa

ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu...

Dulu kau tawarkan

manisnya janjimu

dan ku sambut itu

dengan segenap hatiku

hingga engkau pergi tinggalkanku...

Hilangnya cintamu

menusuk hatiku

hinggaku memilih

cinta yang fana...

Perginya dirimu

merobek jantungku

hingga ku terjatuh

dalam harapan...

Ku sebut namamu

di setiap doaku

bangkitkan setiap 

kenangan tentangmu

yang ku dapat hanyalah

bayangmu...

*Im addicted to this song.. How nice if I can watch this movie with my syg...

*Sighh probably

Hidup akan jadi susah kalau bila mana hati bercanggahan dengan fikiran.
bila hati memikirkan, fikiran menafikan.
Tapi sebenarnya hati dengan fikiran bersatu, bersama, bertautan. 
Cuma, mulut yang terlalu petah untuk berbicara...
Sehingga menjadikan
ketidakmatangan, ketidakwarasan dan keegoan menjadi duli agong dalam hati.

TeAmor:muchos

*sigh,my mind in mess condition
-sorry for this mess wrote. I just wrote for what have came out from my stuck mind.

I AM *********

I'm sad...
Reason:
I wish someone who Im hooked with can feel me deeply. But, did I feel him?

I'm disappointed...

Reason: 

What had happened before seems to be disappeared. However, did I lose mine?

I'm heartbreaking...

Reason:

I think he has changed. Still, am I changed too?

BUT,

I did knew one thing. Which is I LOVE YOU..

My heart and soul is for you. 

The Only YOU.

Though, did You have THAT for Me Dear?

I knew, SO DO YOU~

::sedikit...buat tatapan::

*Te AmorMuchos*

C O M P L I M E N T

C.o.m.p.l.i.m.e.n.t atau dalam erti kata melayu nye pujian, memuji a.k.a 'angkat lebih' tlh jadi sinonim dlm komuniti masyarakat melayu kite sejak dulu2 lg.. Contoh situasi: 
kalau kite jumpa baby (anak kawan ke,atau sape2 yang kita kenal) kite msti puji baby tu seikhlas hati.. Like, ala comel nye baby, montel je, putih melepak kulit. Mmg Terbaik (THUMBS UP) lah kata2 yg terkeluar dari bibir ni..But,  tibe je giliran mak baby tu nk respond ape yg kte puji,mst die cakap ala biase je.. Putih ape, gelap je kulit bdk (bdk huduh *kalau Kelantanese Slang) ni. 
Eemmm...Btw, matter yg nak highlight kat cni ni la...Perspektif org kite stelah di puji. Mst nak merendah diri.. Mmg bagus merendah diri ni, it showed u humble,,, down to earth. Tapi tak juga salah kite mengiakn je ape yg dipuji.. Mcm omputih, kalau org puji je die, ank die, as easy as ABC-Z je die cakap Thanks, Thank you..
Actly, mane de omputih cakap Oh,no Im not preety,handsome atau Im bad kalau dieorg dipuji..
So, ape kate start today we all change our perspectives??? Asal je ade yg puji, just reply back by simple words,, THANK YOU, so do you..

p/s: Bende ni actly terjadi kat aku... Masa kenduri kawin cousin, ada la my father long time no see friend tnye, mcm ni bnyi nye: "eh Arr ni ko anak mu Nadia hok kecik2 dlu tu?"
Then dgn slumbernye abah replied "Ye la, hok huduh, kulit xceroh supo aku tu, anak aku la..."
Pastu, kawan Abh responded "wei la, besar panjang dh, comey dah anak dara mu arr...."
Abah dgn rendah dirinye said "emmm..."
*hurm....Sigh~~